Well, remember me I hope? Haha
Well, as you have seen, I didn't post for a looong time. Again. I never was very regular but this time was different, I just needed to step back and figured out what's next.
And then I watched Supernatural and even if there's already tons of fanarts, I decided to do mine. I'll do other original stuff but the main thing is that it encouraged me taking my pencils again and then told myself ok f*ck off, you don't have the talent of this person or this other genius but I don't care anymore. I wanna do what I love, when I can. I have a full time job, a loving boyfriend and I don't wanna lose all of it cause of this deep frustration which made me so sad and angry sometimes. Low self-esteem is a f*cking killer. It took a looot of time, cause I'm 31 now, and I don't wanna waste my time anymore. I wanna take pleasure drawing, at my level, learning new technics, and even if I don't do amazing pro stuff, it's ok now. I deal with it. At least, better than before, when the pressure I put to myself became almost unbearable and made me drop my pen and lost hope.
It's very personal but I know I'm not the only one to feel like that. We're so many artists on DA, some of them are fantastic, and it's very inspiring. Well, not that I have no ambition but I realized that some people can sincerely like what I do, and that's enough. Thank you for your support, thank you even if you liked just one draw in my gallery, thank you for kind words and for your patience.
Wish me good luck and good luck to you too, artists who try to make your path in this vast, hostile but beautiful jungle
I'll do the best I can, and I won't give up!!